Questioning Things – Yay Rambling

I have lots I wanna talk about! Be prepared for a novel ^_~

Let’s start with… Nintendogs – I just recently got my 3DS with Mario Land 3D and Nintendogs. Jen pointed out that the version she just purchased had Siberian Huskys with it and everyone knows they’re my favorite breed of dogs followed by German Shepards (after that, I’m just not a dog person). So… I considered heavily on it for about 24 hours (cause I’ve been lightly debating if I wanted a 3DS or not for months now) and then she handed me her Nintendogs to look at it…

…yeah~ you know what happened, don’t you? I went to the kennel and picked the Huskies, picked my preferred color and markings- and oh my gosh it shows me the three most adorable little virtual puppies I have ever seen! Then I get to ‘pet’ them and eee! I was sold. The next day I went and got my 3DS, lol, got my Nintendogs, did the kennel thing again and found my dream puppy, Siberian Husky, White and Black, Blue eyes, Male, and named him Treble as a play on Trouble and Treble Clef He started doing the cute little jumpy thing all playful like at the kennel and I just melted <3

And now, he's so cute and adorable that I literally don't leave the house without my 3DS ^_^ I set it on pedometer when I go out just to walk my little Treble <3

*I just want to add – Huskies followed by Shepards have been my favorites for years =p This is no way a Bias because of BTR, lol. Though it's a funny coincidence XD

So that's that story~

Today Mom and Bro dragged me out of the house, which slightly sucked cause I didn't sleep last night (yay for noisy rain storms *sarcasm*), spent the whole morning exercising (procrastinated shower/getting ready for the outside world) and thus went outside feeling icky. We got Chinese food for lunch though, and this place that we go to is awesome. I mean it, the food is so great and the portions are amazing for what you pay. I usually get something along the lines of Cherry Chicken with Fried Rice, though this time I got Sweet and Sour Chicken with Chowmein… just yum <3

But while out, I realized a couple things. I still don't like mushrooms, and both my Mom and my Brother just love getting all up in other people's business. Here's an example/story; we're coming up to a red light and my Mom starts asking about this guy's gas cap to our right, she thought it was messed up or dented. My bro starts looking (He's shotgun on the right) and he's like 'nah those are small Monster stickers but he's got some funky looking cleaning equipment in the backseat'. And so they start talking about his equipment as they're peering into this guy's car. I'm in the backseat pretty much face palming the whole time.

This kind of incident repeated itself but not as often as my Mom looking at wildlife while driving… If you're going to drive, you're responsible for your car, yes, but you're also responsible for all of those around you because if you do something stupid, those people + you are going to be the ones tangled in the mess. So I'm really adamant about paying attention to the road when you drive.

My Mom on the other hand is like… Oh look! Deer! Oh why are there so many buzzards? Oh there’s an egret crane out here, wonder if he's here today? Oh my little burrowed owls must be in the ground right now. Look at the rabbit! And the list goes *on*! Sad part is, this all happened within small 5-10 minute town drives today within the same hour. Then I finally comment with a heavy sigh AFTER she jerked the breaks a bit from watching the buzzards "that's right, Jenn doesn't like my driving"- ya think?

Oh, and something from this morning… I guess some things are happening with the band I like, and one of the members started dating. Said guy lost hecka followers on Twitter yesterday and people are unfriending him on Facebook. I read it and my first reaction was "wow…". I don't get people. Why would you remove/unfriend over that? If you truly care about someone, in any increment, you should wish them happiness. I'm trying not to name names (who this is, etc), but it's just really lame that that's the mentality of some people out there. It's shallow, and selfish. That's just my opinion.

I'm not going to say I'm an angel though. If my favorite started dating (which I'm still surprised he's not, as far as I know), yes, I'd be a little jealous, but I'd be sincerely happy for him. And whichever girl he falls for is one very lucky girl whom I hope never takes him for granted. I’ve never personally met them, but all of the guys in this band take the time to interact with their fans, they stay active in important projects, are hard working- but more importantly, they seem like genuinely nice people; all of them deserve happiness.

Sorry, I guess I just had to rant over that… y’know, they say when you criticize, demean, or insult someone, it’s stemming from your own unhappiness. Use that as you will.

Next topic~ Valentine’s Day… oh you knew it was coming, don’t pretend =p hehe jk.

Really though. It’s that time of the year where being single sucks the most. Why do I say this? Let’s take a look.

1) All those happy couples in your line of sight. Not so bad, usually cute and sweet, could live with it.
2) V-Grams? Popularity thing? Please tell me my new college doesn’t have these…
3) Asking someone… hah. I laugh at this, it’s not going to happen.
4) Being asked. Now THIS is where I have my problems this year (saywut? when did this happen, right?)

So up until now I’ve either been oblivious, home-schooled (a.k.a. anti-social and secluded), surrounded by so many guy friends no other outside guy dare tries, been with someone, or has just been overall “intimidating” (according to all of my guy friends). Like, really? *I’m* intimidating??? Me? I’ll save that for later >.>;

Right now I just don’t know what I’m hoping for… I confessed to someone last year and got rejected, and since then I’ve turned away a few guys… (wow I feel bad about that but I really liked the guy that rejected me). I’m over it now, but now I have this idea of prince charming engrained in my mind and he’s a celebrity so that’s a hard image to… get over… ugh *facedesks* See my problems already?

I know of at least one new guy whose interested in me, and I don’t know what to expect, or to say if… *facedesks again*

Then there’s this guy in one of my new classes… he’s way cute, but I usually shrug that off cause “Never Judge a Book by it’s Cover”. ‘Cute’ can mean ‘utter jerk’ in a lot of cases =p

The day of, he just ran a mile in his previous P.E. class and I don’t know why but sporty/active guys are interesting and appealing to me. Maybe because I’m an “energetic ball of fire” and I know they’d be able to keep up with me, lol, I dunno, anyways…

He sat to my side at an adjacent table… kept asking me questions, got curious about a mind exercise we were given and checked out my paper for my thoughts, and kept watching me throughout class. Again, something I usually shrug off cause those can be mistaken for ‘friendly’ markers. But then… blah dksjldjafhiodghaijalsd. I’m not giving this anymore thought… nope… no…

I have so much more I want to talk about but this is already so much to read. If you’re still reading this; whoa! Thanks? lol.

Uhm… I just wanted to ramble about how I’m questioning the whole accounting as my career decision, or at least managerial accounting. Please let cost accounting be more of what I’m expecting *crosses fingers*. I don’t care about buying or selling stocks and bonds, I really don’t. *sigh*

I think I have a bit of homework to do tonight, and I really want/need to spring clean my wardrobe. I started exercising back in August (I think), and it’s light things, no huge change in diet (just gradual stuff, baby steps) and my body decided ‘whoa after sitting on your tooshie for 12+ years playing MMOs in a hardcore fashion, I <3 this lifestyle' and needless to say, half of my wardrobe is way too big for me now… including some of my newly purchased clothing… double edged sword I suppose, but I'm happy with it. I've definitely become more confident and outspoken since August :3

It's weird too cause I grew up being dressed in a dress EVERYDAY of my life till 4th grade (girly-girl). Then I turned into a major tomboy until about~ 9th grade, lol. Then outta no where I became a complete computer geek until last year. Now I’m in a whole new category… wonder if this one will stick? ;D

Ok, I suppose that’s enough to type about for one day… Hope you enjoyed peering into my mind a little bit =p

Definitely this year

I think without a doubt I’ll be finishing Powers of Kirin this year I say this because, I just hit the plot twister and everything in my book’s little world is completely out of whack, lol. I wonder if all writers have fun throwing everything into chaos and then go “ahhh must fix it now!” to end it XD

But uh… chapter 30 is written unless I can find things to add to it. I do need to type it up and fix what needs fixing, but it was so much fun to write. I hope the rest of the book is this fun to envision and write up ^_^

Post 81!

I feel so distant from all of my friends right now, but it’s only understandable because in the past two years, we all somehow acquired this thing called ‘a life’. I remember when we used to stay up until 5am in the morning playing World of Warcraft and then somehow miraculously we’d still make it to school by 8am or to work around 2pm for mid-shifts.

Now… my best friend of 14+ years works 12 hours a day 4 out of 7 days of the week, and is dating my brother. My other best friend moved to another state because her husband is in the air force and they were relocated. My last best friend got a boyfriend and between that and our clashing school/work schedules, we don’t do anything anymore. Then we have my other really good friends that I don’t have anything in common with anymore, and it’s been that way for years but I recently added an even LARGER gap between us because of my new life style change.

I mean, naturally the smart thing one would do, would be to go out and introduce themselves to a new social circle, right? Heh… not anti-social me. Instead I’m just taking up every hobby and interest I’ve ever considered learning or trying, while cramming in as much school as possible so I can get another degree (and hopefully move to another city with a high paying job from said degree).

I think I just fail at putting myself out there, and there isn’t a whole lot to do where I live either. Or maybe I just feel like I won’t be able to find someone who shares my interests. Like… I want to be more active, but I literally only have 1 friend who is active and she’s the one with the boyfriend and clashing school schedule. All my other friends are… uh… lol, how do I put this without sounding critical or harsh?… Lazy? IT people? Nerds? lol… tough love, tough love~! But really, I was there myself a couple of years ago, how do you think I met them all? IT college + MMOs *nodnod* XD

Well… I guess I’m back at the time-patience-waiting game kinda thing aren’t I? So many things could potentially throw my world into chaos this year, and I bet I can’t even imagine a fraction of these potential things. New degree is one thing… successfully publishing my book (after I finish it) is another… moving which will probably inevitably happen before the end of this year is another… and oh geez it’s 3am already.

I’ve been typing up what I have written in my notebook to my document for Powers of Kirin since I got home around 9pm (on and off of course). I’m starting to get that slightly agitated- oh my gosh- so much to edit and revise and possibly rewrite altogether- nonsense going on right now. But I have this new star of motivation to get this book as flawless and wonderful… and finished as possible. It’s my ticket to… well… it’s my ticket to something I feel strongly about, if all goes well.

*sings*
There can be miracles~ when you believe~ though hope is frail, it’s hard to kill~…
They don’t always happen when you ask~
and it’s easy to give into your fear~

We meet again…

… wordpress =)

Ok so… where to start. I think giving me time off from work and school is a waste of time, lol. The past 2 days I’ve had off I’ve played Just Dance 3 and ran on my treadmill (good things- but it gets bad). I’ve spent a good time on Facebook today making an image for this new timeline thing and then I literally sorted every photo I ever uploaded to viewer-friendly albums.

The rest of today and pretty much all of yesterday was productive in the sense that I finally made outfits and finished off the details of every last character in my book. That’s something I’ve been procrastinating for a couple years now because I’ve been more focused on the plot and story.

The fun part will be going back through everything I have written and typed to add in the new detailed descriptions of all the characters…

I mean… I guess those things seem worth while but I feel like I’ve done nothing…

I’m realizing the way I have all of my book stuff sorted and laid out is nice… but not good enough. So I’m thinking sometime towards the middle of this month I’m going to go get me an art portfolio to put my art in, possibly grab a more decadent binder because my current one is too small to fit my whole book (when typed up) into it. -And I’m just going to continue to add to what’s already there, so that’s no good.

Oh uhm… at work there’s this art book I want to buy and add to my collection. I randomly found it somewhere it definitely does not belong and began thumbing through it. I think after the 5th page I was already saying “ahhh I have to have this!” Lol. Thinking Thursday is the day for that =p

Mmm what else… oh school. Well… I somehow managed to get 3 out of 4 of the classes I *need* and then 1 that sounds interesting. The 4th class I still need was full so I’m just going to goto the class and ask for an add code. I’m a determined girl, I must try! Thing is… do I drop that ‘interesting’ class if I get the add code, or do I keep it and take on 5 full classes this semester? It might be too much to do 5… I feel confident now but these are not easy courses… blah. Guess I’ll find out after I sit in on each class at least once, right?

Ooo app update

I like the new wordpress app, it’s so much more convenient.

Ok so… things have slown down since last month. I spent New Years with my Bro and Jen and we just kind of hung around the house doing our own thing. It was nice, it really was. Seems like every holiday and birthday my family and I are going all which way to do something outrageous and it’s refreshing to just stop every once in a while. And I’m not a huge party person anyways. I know I’m a social butterfly once I’m in one, but I generally avoid them.

I made it a point to write willingly during the stroke of midnight on New Years cause they say whatever you were doing at that moment, is what you’ll be doing most all year. I’d really like to complete my book this year, but I don’t want to rush or force it either. When re-reading it, I can personally tell where it’s been forced or not because there’s this “groove”. Like, all the good parts that you *want* to read more of without putting it down- that’s where it wasn’t forced. And realizing this, I keep re-reading it and trying to improve the parts around it (there’s my perfectionist side for ya).

School starts again on the 18th and my classes are going to be all over the place regardless if I go with schedule 1 or schedule 2 or a mesh of both. This only worries me because of my job, I don’t think they’ll like the complicated hours. And yes, it’ll be draining on me to do all I want to do this semester with the hours they are, but I feel compelled to give it everything I have.

I’ve been painting more too! I just did a Coca Cola painting that I really wanted to do since I became interested enough to pick up painting. I’ll add a pic.